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Showing posts with label Lost and Found. Show all posts

#675 Scared to be lonely..


This is a letter for the new me. Yes you know who I am talking about.  The one that is currently sulking at home alone, thinking “I don’t want to be lonely…Thinking do I take that risk or not..
I know things have been tough lately. Every day feels the same and you want to scream from the top of your lungs because it sucks. Every day you feel like you’re on a downward spiral. You just hope that your life starts to change real soon. It can begin to get better for you from “wait for it, one more sec, NOW! 
See, I was once you. I searched for what I was supposed to do with my life. I was looking for a career, not just a job. A career I could amaze my friends when they ask you that dreaded question.. So what do you do? 
So you have turned... (shh – 30), and you still don’t know what to do with your life.Who cares as long as you are enjoying what you want to do.. right?. You thought life would be great by now, and everything else would fall into place. You’d get married, have a nice house, have kids, and live happily ever after. 
See new me, I’ve learned that life doesn’t have to be about finding that one thing you’re meant to do and then do it forever. Some people do find that one thing and dedicate their whole lives because they love it. To me life is about exploring everything out there. It’s trying different things and putting more attention on certain ones. There’s so much out there that it’d be a shame to not have more than one interest. Is what I’m doing now what I’ll be doing forever? No, but I’ve found something that I enjoy at this moment. I know new opportunities will present itself and my need for a new challenge will come along. Who knows what I’ll be doing five years from now, but for now, I like what I do and have stopped searching for the meaning of life.
If you don’t know what you want to do with your life, it’s okay!  However a better life isn’t going to be found watching television, or mindlessly surfing the internet, or checking Facebook every five minutes. It’s not found sitting on the couch after work every night or drinking your sorrows away every weekend with your buddies. Your life won’t improve if you constantly feel sorry for yourself or rely on others to make it better for you. Nor is a better life going to happen instantly. So stop clicking your heels together, cause those fantasies remain with Wizard of Oz.

I know you don’t want to hear it, but it’s going to take one day at a time. You need to start making deliberate choices and stop sleepwalking through life. Stop pointing blame at others and make a list of the new you items and start slowing just with one of them. As the new you is about to be made. So I ask one thing, and one thing only. Stop with the damn frowning and place a smile on that face, as who is going to like a misery guts.. Yes made you smile, There’s the new you after all. x
Showcasing the amazing new works available right now at our awesome destinations. So what are you waiting for, come take a walk to:
GizzA - Soho / Outfit [Printed Blue] Pareo Maitreya (New) Instore @ GizzA
[ zerkalo ] Coffee Lovers - Enjoy it Pilllow - (New) @ Lost and Found Event
Nutmeg. Chesterfield Sofa Brown ADULT - (New) @ Shiny Shabby
Nutmeg. Bachelor Bag Black - (New) @ Shiny Shabby
*TKW* Vrba [Unrigged] - (New) @ Shiny Shabby
Fame Femme : Kelly Heels  - Black - Maitreya - (New) @ The Epiphany
Glam Affair - Jerlise Necklace Ocean -  (New) @ Fameshed
*LODE* Head Accessory - Wild Sakura Butterflies 
Kalopsia - Madeleine's Roses Bucket
::KKs:: Knick Knacks - Un voyage a New York - boarding pass
*SORGO - Passports
Pose: - By Del May - Weary Listener





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#589 I look for answers...If I don't laugh and smile there is fear of howling like a baby.


These last few weeks I've been dealing with some pretty intense fears. I'm not afraid to admit that I'm only human and fear rears it’s ugly head in my life too. Whilst every post I try and be positive for you all, today my fear has taken hold and I wanted to share. 

Way back I mentioned that my mother was suffering from severe dementia and well she's a stubborn woman if I must say and wasn't meant to last past Christmas. Two Christmas later, it happens again and the call goes out to the family that her body is shutting down. Again now we are in April and she fighting with all her life but still whenever we make plans (those plans), she fights with all her strength...

Whilst my mother is available to see not like some of my friends who have lost their loved ones, I look at my mother who is now blind, tell her that I love her, hold her hand, wipe her face, kiss her head, and tell her I am always by her side. My mother you see is my heart. I share stories and even though she nods, I am not sure she understands who I am and what I am saying to her. Mum did everything for me and did it well. I never looked for anything, I had the best upbringing, and without her love I wouldn't be the same as I am now. In saying that my mother she can't talk, she can't feed herself, she can't wash herself, she has no independence and gives the nurses hell. I guess I would do the same. 

My fear apart from losing her.. I now have another shock of fear and that is my father now has been diagnosed with dementia, and his dementia is progressing quite rapidly. My father is in the same position my mother was in a few years back. To explain my father is my rock. I have accepted my mother's dementia and whilst the tears flow every time I see her, I am in complete shock that the doctors – specialists now state my father has moderate dementia as well and will need to go to a home now. I honestly can't cope. 

Well, I've noticed a few things about fear over the last few weeks. The first thing is our reluctance to feel it. There is so MUCH god-damn resistance and dogma around fear. First up, it’s pretty much viewed as a sign of weakness if you admit to anyone that you’re scared or experiencing fear. I never call out for help myself, and admit that I broke down last week at work when i heard the news from the doctors.

Yet we ALL feel it. No one wants to admit it, so we bury it away and deny it’s own very existence. The problem with that is – the more you hide it, the stronger it gets. Fear for me is my life changing a direction I can't control. My father being the hero in my life, my heart wants to explode as I hear him stumble for words and memory loss quite significant, repeating his stories over and over again. When all I want to do is scream, shake him and tell him to wake up. I went through these emotions with my mother and eventually accepted it. I know I can't do any of the above to Dad, so I hold back the tears when I see him, only to howl like a baby that I now have two parents that need care and whilst my mother does not know who I am and hasn't for quite some time, my fear takes hold will I ever be able to accept my father not recognizing me in a few months.. My fear in this case is shock. Denial that life can be this mean. Understanding to overcome this fear I have to be strong, but will I be able to cope with the change that is most definitely coming....

Amidst the backdrop of Neva River, with some added scenery from Little Branch with their new LB_HoneyTree, and  LB_SpringBrise_v2 {With Flowers Menu} @ Lost and Found.
Wearing the gorgeous new outfit from Clef de Peau called "Sarah", sitting upon the delicately made Farum furniture set in brown from Elysium @ Shiny Shabby, with the stunning new hair from Moon called "Uma" @ Black Fashion Fair, and some other exciting items available to you right now, I bring to you our destinations for today: - 
Link direct to stores at Shiny Shabby are included for you below.

Destination: -  Shiny Shabby, Black Fashion Fair, Lost and Found

Dress: - Clef de Peau Outlet.Sarah Ruffled Dress.Creme (New) @ Shiny Shabby
Hair: - Moon. Hair. // Code Uma - (New) @ Black Fashion Fair
Necklace: - Chrysta Silver by Tracei - (New) @ The Lost and Found
Chair: -Elysium - Farum furniture set - brown - (New) @ Shiny Shabby
Honey Tree: - LB_HoneyTree{Seasons} @ (New) @  Lost and Found
SpringBrise: - LB_SpringBrise_v2{With Flowers Menu} (New) @ Lost and Found
Wild Grass: - LB_WildGrass*1Li{Dry} (New) @ Lost and Found
Face: - LeLutka Mesh Head-STELLA 1.3 with Glam Affair

Pose: - Bauhaus Movement - Peace
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#572 Ana at Lavende de Bonnieux



I am quite excited to tell you and can’t believe it myself, but will be opening to the public my small homestead which I have lovingly named: - ‘Lavende de Bonnieux’.
This homestead is based on the provincial lifestyle, To the eyes, it's a symphony of color: the silvery green olive trees, the slow flowing sea and overcast sky, as you enter the world of the old and the new, which is the Provence. The rustic old houses with their old fashioned shutters—all bathed in the most wonderful light with the smell of coffee amidst the lavender scent as you walk around amongst the cobble pathways.

To the nose it's the lavender and spring fields, the imagination of the thyme and rosemary that grow in the wild, the wine left to breathe in the glass with the vineyards in the distance. To the mouth it's the taste of olive oil, garlic, basil, figs and the countless varieties of fruit and vegetables. To the skin, it's the kiss of the sun. To the heart, it's being overcome by these sensations, giving in to these delightful contrasts, forgetting everything but the moment, knowing that this is life and this is Lavende de Bonnieux.
So without further ado, Here is a sneak preview of part of the build for my site, a long way to go yet, which will open in May/June with more information to follow later.

Showcasing the stunning new poses from RK Poses, with this one called ‘Ana (2)’.

Wearing the gorgeous new Zenith Strappy dress (in cream) from Uber, with the beautiful creativity of Lassitude and Ennui with their Pentacle pendant in silver coming your way to We <3 RP, and the gorgeous new hair from Little Bones called ‘Chel’ in blonde available now at Uber.

 So what are you waiting for, come take a walk to our destinations for today: -

Destination: - FaMESHed, Uber, RK Poses, Lost and Found, and We <3 RP
 
Outfit: - Zenith Strappy Dress with Belt (Cream) – Maitreya @ FaMESHed
Hair: - Little Bones: Chel (Lelutka) in blonde @ Uber
Pendant: - Lassitude and Ennui – Pendant in Silver @ We <3 RP (Coming soon)
Trees: - Little Branch - Weeping Willow v2 @ Shingle Oak 2.1 @ Lost and Found
Pose: - RK Poses called Ana (2) @ RK Poses












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#525 The person that has no imagination has no wings




Muhammad Ali  once said, “The man who has no imagination, has no wings.”


Imagination is the building block to help you visualize your dreams in life. If you have no imagination you probably don't know which direction to go in life. We are all just birds ready to fly in our own directions. If we have no imagination then our wings will always be clipped.
Imagine a world where we were suddenly stripped of imagination. Imagine what the future in such a world would be like. It would become stagnate; void of original thought from human beings. It doesn’t matter how such a tragedy would occur, that’s not the point. But that it occurred.


Of course, if humanity had never had imagination from the beginning, most likely, we would never develop, grow, or evolve, nor be able to think things through or solve problems. Nobody would have an original thought. Our minds would be totally handicapped. There would have been no art, no music, no literature, no sports, no talent, no creativity whatsoever, not much of anything. There would never have been any inventions, innovations, improvements, nor any changes whatsoever. But in this modern technological age, if our ability to imagine things and to be creative simply voided out in our minds, what would happen? For starters, there would be total stagnation. There would be no new thought processes, no new ideas, no further inventions or innovations or improvements, and there’d be no changes whatsoever. Perhaps we would lose interest in all our clever technologies and inventions of the modern age. Perhaps we would slip back into total barbarism and savagery once again.
We would forget how far we have come technology, and most likely everything technological would collapse, and so society would collapse. We would become a lethargic, careless, thoughtless people, barely surviving in a world where our minds have become stifled and limited. We wouldn’t be able to dwell on the past, to reminisce; nor would we be able to imagine the future, to dream for greater things to come. So if you can even imagine what life would be like without your imagination, that would be a very sad state and life would be terrible and bleak if it were true.


Thank God such a disaster has never occurred, and most likely never will. We should be thankful that we do have the ability to imagine, to be creative, to conjure up great ideas, and to invent and improve things, to think things through and solve problems.
We should never take that wonderful ability for granted.


One person that I do know that has an amazing amount of imagination is that of Neva Crystall and her new place called Saint-Pete City where this picture below was created. Wearing the gorgeous new outfit from GizzA Creations called the Lakua Cardigan, with the beautiful new hair from Pepe titled "Autumn" and the gorgeous new shoes from Fri. I bring to you our destinations for today: -


Destinations: - Shiny Shabby, and Lost and Found


Outfit: - GizzA Creations Lakua Cardigan Set with Brown vest (New) @ Lost and Found
Hair: - Pepe Hair - Autumn in Dark Blondes (New) @ Shiny Shabby
Shoes: - Fri. Yara Heels - 24/7 pack (New)
Skirt: - Bueno Denim Miniskirt - Floral


Pose: - Del May - Sad Reflections (New) @ Del May

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