When I first heard Sia’s “Big Girls Cry,” I was on my way home, catching a bus that I never do, and listening on my ipod the haunting music of Sia. At first I was just staring out the window as my stop came closer and for some unknown reason my eyes welled up with tears, my throat got all catchy and I thought OMG I am going to burst out crying on this bus. I was captivated, intrigued and sad all at once. There has only been a handful of songs that have made me feel this way and Sia's Big Girl's Cry is one of them.
Sia's voice sounded like a melodious cry. I could feel the pain, the sadness and the fatigue in her voice. It was as if Sia herself were reaching into my chest and digging deep for my own painful secrets. It was as if she was whispering to me, “I know you’re not okay.” Honestly I thought I was until that song started. Confused I got off the bus with tears blurring my vision. Swallowing hard, I almost lost it when I heard her yell out “Let it out. Big girls cry when their hearts are breaking…”
But then I reasoned: I've got nothing to cry about. I’m stronger than that. I've been through a lot but I’m fine. I’m good. I’m moving on…You can’t really understand it until it happens to you. There are so many other people around that life is far worse for them. See for those that don't know, I had a car accident the other week and now heading back to work aka catching the bus. Some drunken idiot in the rain ran through a red light. Wack goes me against the side of the car, rammed into the steering wheel, air bag deployed and yes being the fragile me, ended up with one broken arm and shoulder. So damn can't drive. 4-5 weeks to go, and so frustrating living with a disability. I've never had this happen before, so why am I being soft now. So many other people are living with disabilities far worse than myself that will never heal. That they don't have a count down to get better. I honestly admire those people who every day no matter how tough life is for them with their disability they have strength that I admire and can only hope that one day for them life will become easier.
One strength I do admire is that of our designers that have dedicated themselves for Shiny Shabby. Wearing the beautiful and stunning dress called 'Kate' from Les Petites Details (LpD), the gorgeous new hair from Mina and the adorable Fiore bag from Luas, I bring to you a must visit destination for today: -
Destination: - @ Shiny Shabby - April Round